CD9: Clomid Sucks
Hopefully I'm coming to the end of the side effects, but I've got a bad feeling that's not the case. The headaches are still on-going, although the hot flashes seem to be lessening. By the way, the term "hot flash" is a little misleading. It's more like "hot all the time" interspersed with periods of "holy shit I'm really hot right now, let me take off some clothes, and I don't care that I'm in the middle of Home Depot." Again, the being hot is annoying, but the headaches are what's really getting to me. On top of that, I just feel sick. I felt nauseous last night. In the evening, I feel like I have a head cold. It's just all around unpleasant. And if I feel this way all month long, I'll be less than pleased.
Maybe it's worth it. I don't know. Well, of course it will be worth it if I get pregnant this cycle. But what if I don't? Do I want to go through all of this again? Especially when I don't "need" Clomid? Right now, I'm leaning towards no. If I wasn't ovulating or something like that, I'd have no choice but to suffer through this if I wanted to get pregnant. But I do ovulate. My cycle is A-OK.
This is just how I'm feeling now...that's the point of this blog after all. Who knows? Maybe (hopefully) the side effects will lessen and go away. Maybe (hopefully) I'll see two or three good follicles at the ultrasound on Monday. All of that could make me want to do this again next cycle. Right now, I just don't think so.
It used to be that these two weeks were more or less fine. I do want them to pass because I want to get started again. But in comparison to the two week wait, they're relatively calm, stress free weeks. Now I feel like crap, and it's making these two weeks almost as difficult as the two weeks after an insemination.
I guess time will tell what the future holds for me and Clomid. If I don't get pregnant this time around--especially if I only produce one follicle, or god forbid I end up with a cyst and no follicle at all--I'll seriously reconsider if I want to put myself through this again.
Maybe it's worth it. I don't know. Well, of course it will be worth it if I get pregnant this cycle. But what if I don't? Do I want to go through all of this again? Especially when I don't "need" Clomid? Right now, I'm leaning towards no. If I wasn't ovulating or something like that, I'd have no choice but to suffer through this if I wanted to get pregnant. But I do ovulate. My cycle is A-OK.
This is just how I'm feeling now...that's the point of this blog after all. Who knows? Maybe (hopefully) the side effects will lessen and go away. Maybe (hopefully) I'll see two or three good follicles at the ultrasound on Monday. All of that could make me want to do this again next cycle. Right now, I just don't think so.
It used to be that these two weeks were more or less fine. I do want them to pass because I want to get started again. But in comparison to the two week wait, they're relatively calm, stress free weeks. Now I feel like crap, and it's making these two weeks almost as difficult as the two weeks after an insemination.
I guess time will tell what the future holds for me and Clomid. If I don't get pregnant this time around--especially if I only produce one follicle, or god forbid I end up with a cyst and no follicle at all--I'll seriously reconsider if I want to put myself through this again.
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